I recorded this little video this morning of frozen Illinois River.

It used to flow, move, and now it’s just still. Like it’s dead. But only on the surface. Underneath the ice, no one can see that it still flows and moves.

Spring won’t come soon enough to thaw the ice so I can see the river move again…

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I survived the holidays. I think. And now I’m just trying to catch up on where I left off. Organization. I’ll get right on that! …Maybe after I get to enjoy some peace. Wish me luck.

There’s been sooo much of everything. Work, family, freezing, driving (while freezing), food, alcohol, present giving, fun, not fun.. Who decided to cram all this within a 6-week period and then do it over and over again, every year?

Working holidays in the public/food services is a lot of painful fun, too. Because pain is fun, apparently.

The fun part is… I don’t remember now. It’s in there, somewhere.

Oh wait, I remember the fun part, now. It’s being aware of the cycles and knowing that I can break out of them any time. I just have to get my shit together and do it.

I could so easily break through the ice now. Let me guess what’s underneath… cold water? But I’m not sure if I really want to make waves in a frozen river. Call me crazy. Some people don’t mind Hypothermia and possibly death, on purpose, but I’m not one of them.

Maybe by Spring, the water will thaw so I can continue to float down this lovely river. And make some waves.